Impermanence And The Space of The Heart

"Our other resources come and go. But when we touch that pure presence, the pure ego-less space of the heart, we are unbreakable. With that connection, which is the deepest gift of yoga, we can deal with just about anything." -Sally Kempton

Each week at the Buddhist Center, we get a question to think about to next time. We get to choose the question ourselves, relating to the topic we have been discussing in class. So, last week we were talking about impermanence. Everything is in constant change. Nothing is fixed. Even our Selves. In yoga philosophy, there is an idea that amongst all this change, we have an inner core that is unchangeable. An essence that is pure and stable. In Buddhism on the other hand, there is no core. We are completely subject to change. Nothing is stable.

This is my question of the week. To reflect on my impermanence. My coreless Self. Which theory do I beleive in? It´s nice to think that I have a core, something around which I can revolve. Some stability...On the other hand, if everything is subject to change, what is there to be afraid of? If everything changes, there are endless possibilities. The things I identify with today are not written in stone, therefor I have the possibility to change. And that´s quite liberating! No need to cling, because there is nothing to cling to.

I was meditating on this question the other day. I imagined that I was boundless. That I had no core and no bounderies. At first, I got really scared. I felt the ground being swept away underneath my feet. I was falling. Panic. Tears were trickling down my cheeks. But I stayed with the feeling, and after a while, I realised that since there was no ground, I would not crash. I could just keep on floating in endless space. And when I accepted that, I felt free. I would let myself be carried away by the currents to wherever they were taking me. I let go of trying to control things. I could feel a sence of warmth and security in my heart. There is my true home. Pure presence.