Energy Levels

Well, I haven´t written anything on my blog for a while. I guess I´ve not been so inspired. Meening to say my practice this autumn hasn´t been so inspiring.

These last two months have been really dark here in Stockholm. And I´ve had a lot of stress at work. My energy right now is really low, I´m feeling really tamasic. I can´t get up in the mornings! So instead of practicing five days a week like I normally do, it´s been rather 3-4 times a week. That makes a huge difference. It´s really painful to practice now. The cold and the lack of a daily practice makes my body more stiff. And the fact that it´s painful to practice doesn´t exactly make me jump out of bed in the morning and race to the shala:-)

I´ve been thinking a lot about energy levels though. I´ve noticed that when I am feeling low in energy, it can be low in different ways. Difficult to explain the difference, but I feel it like there can be a "light low" and a "deep low". When my enegy level is "light low", it helps to do something vigorous. That kind of practice can then leave me feeling invigourated, bouncing out of practice with new found energy. And then there is "deep low". With that kind of low energy a vigorous practice can leave me totally depeleted. I then find it better to do pranayama, meditation or perhaps yin yoga.

I´m very happy to have found this connection between energy levels and practice. It feels like I know how to tune my energy better now. But part of it is also about acceptance. It´s winter, energy is naturally lower. Nature is sleeping. The days will start getting lighter in a weeks time, holidays are coming up and I will have time to rest. And a new year is coming up, and I am hoping for new energy and inspiration!